Smilin' Through

It was the first birthday
It was the first christmas
It was the first new years eve

Everyone said the first is the toughest
The roughest
And don't expect to enjoy


The first holidays without my boy
Can't share cause he's not there
Don't know where he is...
He's gone somewhere

So im sad..i have tears
I have memories of past happy years

Friends are near celebrating with good cheer
And I find myself right there in the middle of
The merriment, smiling, laughing, even dancing
And thinking of romancing

And is it ok to feel this way
Can I get through the blast in the past
Am I movin....really groovin'

Can it be that I can think of me
Can I begin to enjoy without the presence of 
My boy...is this ok..and will this last another day?

And, when he reads these words,
What will my boy say?

Margo Moss
January 8,2004